"i woke up stronger than ever".

hey guys whats up ?..This is my Second blog, in the past twenty four hours so much has happened that i want to write about it and tell the world, or whoever reading this really ,:P.

So in my first blog i wrote about my favorite band M83 their amazing onstage performance and Jordan lawlor their bassist ,less than 24 hours later i am over the moon to say i got in touch with the man himself and he read my blog and made this day truly amazing. :D
"You aren't being a pain at all! What you wrote absolutely made my day."-jordan lawlor .




 Hope your having fun in England Mr Jordan Lawlor !:D ..The song Steve Mc Queen without doubt 


highlights today for me!, :D The line itself "tears of joy all over my face" spurs me back to the 


moment they stepper on stage ......Magical moments ill never forget.

so to jordan lawlor id like to say thank you for taking time to read my blog , you lead a busy life on tour and the fact you took time out to read this girls blog is something i truly appreciate and will never forget . :D...one day i will make you a cup of tea! one day !:D

 I woke up today thinking it was just gonna be another normal day , little did i realize someone else was going to make it a day i wouldn't forget ,times for this girl lately have gone from amazing to rock bottom , but if they didn't reach that low id never be able to appreciate the good in my life !!.

so to anyone out there who right now feels like their worlds crumbling, falling apart or in tatters hold strong , I am only 19 but these eyes have seen a lot and like everyone ive been throughout a lot....

so this blog is firstly to thank jordan lawlor hes given me something to keep me smiling through the tough times ,secondly this blog goes out to anyone out there right now who feels like things dont get better ,they do just stay strong .i understand if you or whoever is reading this says that girl knows nothing once their done ..but to the people out there that this may help ,i promise you it gets better!.

when your at your worst nothing seems worth it ,time keeps passing you by and with each second you hope and pray it gets better ,time to get up and be strong only you can make it better ...

When im at my worst i use my best moments to keep me going , the greatest moment in my life was the birth of my niece.. i really was at my worst life seemed pointless..but since she came into my life nothing can phase me. Right now i've screwed up big time , but thinking of the day she was born gives me hope and keeps me going .Think back to a time in your life when everything was perfect a memory  that no matter what only hold joy ,if you have a photo or something that helps you think of that memory hang it above you bed every morning you'll wake up smiling ...

If things are falling apart right now take ten minutes to yourself away from everyone you might be on a busy bus, a plane or in a crowd but block them out take ten minutes for you to recharge to be able to keep rocking on . Whether its doing what i do grabbing a cup of coffee rolling a cigaret and just closing my eyes to the world ..those ten minutes for you can make such a difference.

Write a journal or a list of things you want to do in life ...and no matter what never stop trying to reach those goals .Last night i started my list and in 24 hours i've succeeded at one of my goals which was getting a reply from jordan lawlor . Reaching these goals is a feeling you can never measure ...its amazing .this week has been a mess for me but now i know that i can succeed at these goals im going to keep writing them and aiming for them ,dont let others stop you !.People can  laugh at me and say my goals are pathetic but thats because their lazy too afraid to take a chance . One day i will succeed at my goal of having a cup of tea with M83 ,it may sound funny but one day im going to succeed at my goals...

i dont want to make this blog too long but tomorow ill write to you again ,whoever is out there reading this ill help you stay strong and if i can ill make you smile, ill try my best to ...

so for now i hope this blog helps somehow i hope it gives you things to keep you strong and i sincerely hope that things get better for you .....keep your head up ,your heart strong and happy because its all down to you its your head your heart your life ! no matter what live it and love it !!.:) 

Once again thank you for helping me succeed at one of my goal Jordan lawlor.

Peace out guys :D , 

Tara <3

Hey, glad you've stumbled upon my blog , this is my first attempt so i hope you enjoy reading it..

Hey there :) ,My names Tara, im nineteen and have many goals that ill be telling you about through my blogs,for my first one im going to discuss a festival i was at recently called Body and soul..

Body and soul is the first festival i've ever attended and one i will surely never forget, being nineteen the days before the festival i packed and unpacked my bag so many times id lost count , with my gear bag stacked full of bits and bobs (half of which i didn't need) i was ready to start this adventure when i arrived i was a day before the official opening (as i was a litter picker) i got to see it before all the muck and rain , seeing the forest lit up in all its glory was amazing running around in the dark of night looking up into trees where umbrellas hung, balls of twine and seeing sing posts based on an alice in wonderland theme led me to believe i was in a fairytale world ,the forest itself had so many twist and turns which not only led you astray but helped you stumble upon places to find yourself, quiet little areas in the woods where you were led to a snake made out of twigs and straw all well bound together by talented artists ..you find yourself drawn into the belly of the snake where you tie a ribbon and make a wish ..my wish came through during this weekend....

Some of the bands to perform the festival were herbalizer, django django , M83 and st vincent and gold panda .

St vincent was my first experience of a large live gig her performance was exhilarating ,hearing the crowd cheer and sing along with her sent shivers down my spine their performance was the first time id ever heard of or listened to their music . Watching the band perform so well and co-ordinated together was so exciting ...things got really heated up when there lead singer a beautiful female vocalist stepped upon the barriers and leapt off into the crown a moment in my life i will forever find amazing and hilarious is when she landed above me kicking me in the head it was such a whirlwind shock that she was crowd surfing and singing at once ....her talent is immeasurable her ability to rock a crowd whilst being tossed about is a skill not many artist have but she has it !.. her performance was amazing , memorable and unforgetable.

After St.vincent stepped off the stage i could feel my excitement building up as i knew M83 were next being a band on everyone of my playlist and music devices ,who i listen to on a daily  basis this was going to be the moment i was waiting for, i can still remember it now watching M83's alien step out onto the stage i could feel the pressure rising in my chest ,fireworks exploding in my mind as i stood staring in awe , this was the moment id been waiting for after the alien retreated i watched as the members of M83 stepped forward onto the stage in awe a tear of joy streamed down my face and i knew from the moment they looked out into the crowd that they were going to blow our minds . The crowd was exploding with screams of joy and like mine excitement . Watching their onstage performance was beautiful it was like watching a explosion of fireworks between the effect of the lighting and the way they each moved with ease , the stage was well and truly theirs, each step they took was so simplistic so smooth and their bassist jordan lawlor  was truly amazing to watch he releases the teenage hysteria in a crowd  he was so beautiful, so amazing  .When jordan lawlor bangs that drum and begins to dance and move, you know thats it you're hooked!. Being a young girl yes i will admit he is this nineteen year olds musical crush ,but hey have you seen the guy hes gorgeous!! .While onstage M83 create such a beatiful atmosphere in the crowd everyone is at ease  and so happy hearing them play ,im hooked im going to see them live every chance i get ,Their Amazing. Every time i think back to or listen to a song from their performance i am filed with nostalgia i can feel what it was like to be there, being in the front row of the crowd and so close yet so far was amazing.

i feel i may be ranting now but to conclude ,

Body and soul was an amazing festival ,an experience of a lifetime i lost my voice for two weeks afterwards, if your'e from ireland or abroad i advise you to go to body and soul it is one weekend in my life i will never forget . Especially due to M83's performance ( my absolute heros )

so before i sign off i've one more thing to add to my bucket list :

One day i would love to meet the members of m83 and as funny as it is make them a cup of tea and get to talk to them they are amazing <3

this was my first blog i do hope you enjoyed reading it ,even my moments of what i now call fan girl memories .

thanks a million ,

Tara :P